Guadalupe Sulaiman, 21, a student at Northside HS, is the last student in class before the last bell rings for the day.

“I’m just trying to survive,” said Sulaiman, who, like other students, did not want to use their names. “A lot of people have died, and I live with the thought of another student having to go through what I have been through.”

Sulaiman is surrounded by a sea of whiteboard markers that show the names of the deceased. She has scrawled dozens of names, many written in pen. When she first wrote out the names, she sat on her couch, shaking her head.

“If that was my neighbor, I’d be in a lot more trouble than if I was the next one to die,” Sulaiman said.

“I’m not trying to glorify whatever these kids did,” she said. “I guess I was hoping to be able to hold each and every one of their names a little closer to my heart.”

Sulaiman is not alone. On April 17, a Northside family member of a 16-year-old student, who died a day later, called 911, police said. The family member identified her as the student who wrote the note.

The teen died in a hospital after an apparent suicide.

In an April 18 post on Facebook, someone writing as “Miss Toni” urged other families to do likewise and write out their names.

“If you’re in the same situation, it’s like my family and the family of the students died together,” someone wrote. “I got a real thick heart as a result of this and want you guys to know that’s ok.”

Sulaiman said she has since told her children each and every one of their names.

“You just take a deep breath. You say it at home over and over and over,” she said, adding that she also has gotten so much support from students in her social media posts.

Sulaiman said she does not want them to feel the same way she feels about their names: angry or depressed. Sulaiman said she hopes to continue helping students in the future.

“I want to help other kids be able to write down their thoughts in a way that doesn’t mean that other kids will have to go through what we went through,” she said.

After her